i have exchanged emails with my ex (yes, ex. after almost 7yrs) and somehow i feel relieved. but i know this is temporary because i know i am still in the process of grieving. i still feel the bitterness and sometimes i release it out there..to ex. to friends. to fb. to twitter. mostly to twitter because i know ex does not have twitter. so basically, i feel free shouting out what i feel to total strangers. since i know even if they judged me i wouldn't care. maybe not that i do not care but prolly because i wouldn't get hurt. even if they tell me to shut up, it would be okay. after all they are strangers.
nway, now i am beginning to really believe that saying that old people from my country have that the 7th year is the make it or break it year. so in our case, well, obviously...
it makes me sad to think about what we had...but the thought of what we still could have saddens me even more. i know my ex loves me. it's just not probably enough to include my son. yes, i have a son. but thing is, ex has known about this ever since and well, now ex said the responsibility is too much. i can;t really fault ex, after all my son is not ex's son.
it's just sad. so sad. i feel so broken inside but of course i have to have this strong facade, that everything's alright. for my son. for my sanity as well.
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